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I have found that changing my attitude affects my emotions, and my body changes accordingly. Sometimes I am motivated by nurture, sometimes by intensity. My motivational hybrid technique revolves around cycles of change. Yogalosophy can help you use the natural flow to recreate your body through intentions, emotions, and other motivational triggers.

OCTOBER/NOVEMBER 2009

TRANSFORMATION = BREAKTHROUGH OR BREAKDOWN

“The moment you want to give up, is the very moment you are transforming.”

This month's themes (click below):

• Transformation
• Intensity
• Darkness and Destruction
• Letting Go Into the Unknown
• Sexuality
• Empowerment

Transformation

The process of transformation is incredibly powerful, but it is not easy.  There is a quote that I love that I used in my VISIONMAT that says:

Make no mistake about it - enlightenment is a destructive process. It has nothing to do with becoming better or being happier. Enlightenment is the crumbling away of untruth. It's seeing through the facade of pretense. It's the complete eradication of everything we imagined to be true.

During my lifetime, I have gone through many little deaths in order to shed my skin and experience rebirth. Collectively, this is happening all around us. In the west, it seems our entire system is turning upside-down. Mostly because we are taught always to be number one; at the top of our game. Even within the new age spiritual community, there is a fear of the dark and an addiction to light. I have found that my deepest, most intimate moments with myself,  have given me the most power. I have come through the very darkness that I have been taught to disclaim. As long as I perceive it as “out there”, I can blame it on everyone else and be a victim. When I claim it, I own the power that comes from facing it within and developing the skills to use its power to transform.

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Intensity

My need to connect and to feel deeply has been satisfied by the confrontation that occurs during periods of intensity. During exercise, there is often a point when I feel that I want to give up.  It is at that exact point of challenge when the part of me that wants to break through, gets stronger.  This has happened when I hit my threshold physically, emotionally and spiritually.  So, I say that if this feeling  brings me closer to my goal, BRING IT ON.

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Darkness and Destruction

There have been several times in my life where I experienced a breaking point; a feeling that I am up against a wall, or that everything I thought I had I must lose. When facing death or loss, my survival instinct sometimes places me in a position of wanting control or being possessive.  I have even imploded and turned it in on myself, wreaking havoc on my own body and emotions by resisting that truth. As a child, I was so afraid of the wicked witch (the epitome and personification of darkness) that my mother cut all the pictures of the witch out of my story books! We are generally taught to ignore the darknesses, both out in the world and within ourselves. Some worry that even if you entertain a negative thought you will bring it upon yourself, or it may be contagious. I have found a better way. What if it is okay to not be at the top of your game 100% of the time? What if these phases of darkness and destruction, loss and death are actually there to help us to experience release and surrender, to see that we are indeed powered by something far larger than our mere desires?

The god SHIVA is a symbol of destruction. There is a DESTROYER archetype that exists. I had an altar once with all kinds of symbols. One day I came home and my house was on fire and the entire chest had been burned. There was nothing left on that altar that was recognizable except the symbol of Shiva. Though I did not know it at the time, my old self, was dying and I was becoming an entirely new person. My job is to channel that destructive energy and to aim it towards the aspects within myself that I need to annihilate. Throw it all into the mix and use every bit of it as fuel.

Letting Go Into the Unknown

The process of letting go is extremely intimate and personal. Each individual has a path and a way that only they themselves can find. This can be scary for a control freak like me, who wants the answers and the quick fixes, however this process of letting go can lead us to an area of mysticism where we may find some sort of transcendence from the earthly world. Many people find this magical place through the practice of yoga or through some type of transformational ritualistic work. I have found many different ways to explore the reliance on a power that is greater than myself. Please connect to the Tips & Links section for references to some of my helpers. Astrology has also been a good guide, giving me a blueprint of insight into my own journey. If I can see my life as a symbolic journey, it begins to give meaning to these archetypes that feel unsafe or unfamiliar.

Sexuality

The second chakra is the point just above your genitals, and it is the place in the body where we relate to one another. It is connected to our passion and our deep desires. Connecting to this area of the body directly relates to the bodily fluids and is supposedly the secret to a lot of mystical powers. Sexual energy is the most potent energy we have. We can create an entire person with that energy. The deepest sense of intimacy and connection to god and to another can come from healing this place within. The practice of Tantric Yoga touches on this. There is also a Taoist version of yoga that reveals we can heal ourselves with this energy. (SEE MANTAK CHIA)

Empowerment

Coming out on the other side of loss gives the sense of true empowerment. I have learned to look at the darkness as a gift. In that very moment, I would have it no other way. Yes. Yes to being emotionally beaten down and verbally abused. Yes to being physically assaulted. Yes to losing my career and my sense of identity. Yes to my body falling apart. Yes to my break up. Yes to being fired. Yes to 9-11. Yes to my fathers cancer. Yes. Yes. Yes. Imagine this “secret”: you are already doing it! Your spirit and soul want it exactly this way. What if every single thing you are living right now, no matter how painful or difficult, is here to help you become the most empowered and deep soul you can possibly imagine. The ability to be the phoenix, rising from the ashes, is to be able to die and emerge with far more perspective. As low as we can go, that is how high we can get.

With that perspective I have been able to emerge with all of my new ventures:
UPCOMING RETREATS, AND CLASSES, THE DVD, VISION MAT, my CLOTHING LINE, the YOGALOSOPHY COMMUNITY, and the web series: POSERS.

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